Chasing And Claiming My Rejected Omega Mate:Alpha's Severe Regret [BL]

ttlChapter 94

Jason

Confusion couldn’t cut out the exact thing I was currently feeling. It was something way more than that. I picked up the bottle of alcohol I was currently drinking from and took a long swing, and then I sighed as it burned down my throat.

What was happening? What the hell was this supposed to mean and how was I supposed to make sense of it?

I glanced down at my dick which was still tenting my pants and i felt weak to the core all over again, prompting me into chugging down more mouthfuls of the alcohol.

Why the fuck was i had? It’s been over thirty minutes since the couple left, and yet, my dick was still throbbing hard.

I tried not to think about it because I wasxtalready freaking out, but then I just fully onot think about it and pretend like nothing was happening when my cock was literally rock hard. If I concentrated hard enough, I’d be able to still imagine the exact way he smell, like his scent was currently clinging to this atmosphere. He smelt of gum, of the ocean, and of something softer underneath it all, which was ridiculous to think about because he was an alpha.

That’s the exact thing that was giving me a headache, because he was a freaking alpha. This was something that has never happened before, I’ve never ever been turned on by one, or be attracted to their scents. Alphas usually irked my wolves and their scents irritated it to the core, which was why he usually doesn’t waste time before letting his enigma status be known.

However, since my encounter with Kenny back at the restroom of that parry, i had been in a lope of confusion. Back then, I hadn’t gotten aroused, so I hadn’t panicked much. After thinking about why I liked his scent so much that night, I ended up dismissing it at the end of the night, choosing to convince myself that it was nothing but a fluke. However, after I got turned on tonight, I couldn’t pretend like this wasn’t happening because it was literally happening.

I took a chug of my drink and groaned low in my throat as I raked a hand through my hair, feeling like I’ve aged ten years ahead in only tonight.

My mind traveled back to the moment it all tilted tonight. From the moment he arrived with Rory, I had been able to stop glancing at him every now and then. The first thing I noticed after they both arrived was that I was attracted to both their scents and my wolf was behind pleased with those scents. I actually liked how their scents smelt when tangled together. On a normal day, that mixture of scent would have irritated my wolf and I because we’d want to be the only one who csn get tangled with our mate’s scent and not some random alpha. But that hasn’t been the case at all, which was why I already knew I was fucked before the dinner even started, but somehow, I still managed to convince myself that nothing was gonna happen and that tonight was gonna flow smoothly without any hitch.

Oh how wrong I was.

It all went to shit after he began to agressuvly talk down on me, that had been my breaking point and I had grasped his shirt in a wave of anger, and I honestly did that because I wanted to punch him, I wanted to punch his nose till he bled or something to actually hurt him, but then we fell and I rolled us around and trapped him underneath my body, then I didn’t understand what happened after that. I didn’t understand how the shirt happened so fast, but in a flash, I wasn’t angry anymore and all I could focus on was breathing in lungfuls of his scents till my lungs got filled up.

In that moment when I grabbed his throat, I realized that I didn’t want to hurt him, that I didn’t want to strangle him till he fainted, but that I wanted to squeeze around that throat which felt like it belonged in my grip and watch how the expression on his face would slowly change. In that moment, I realized that I wanted to see his eyes get glazed over, and that I wanted to see his lips get parted. However, on realizing that I also wanted to kiss him, it was like I got doused with cold water because I flinched away at once and got up his body in a flash, and then I began to pace around to somehow try to calm down the way my blood had been roaring through my veins in that moment.

Now, I didn’t know what to make of that entire incident, and my cock was still hard till now.

I was still very confused and lost. Was this some sort of mental illness?

Lady I remembered, I was only attracted to Omegas. Throughout my entire life, I’ve only been with omegas and after coming across Rory after years, I’ve wanted him with everything in me and I still want him presently. Whenever I come across him, I always get hit with the urge to take him into my arms and kiss him, and then show his body what actual pleasure feels like because no matter what, I’d always believe no alpha could give him as much pleasure as I did in that particular night.

But that was it, I wanted Rory and I still do. I never wanted Kenny when we crossed paths, I hated him tremendously and I definitely still do. He was an asshole, he was rude, and he might sometimes appear calm but his tongue was as sharp as a knife. Whenever I think of him, I should get consumed with the urge to stab him and not to urge to tug him against my chest and bury my face in the side hid his neck where the promise of more of his scent sat at. Whenever I think of him, I definitely shouldn’t want to kiss him.

I let out a sigh and took a last swig of the alcohol before sealing the bottle up and putting it back pn the shelf, and then I washed my hands at the sink before wiping it dry. As I exited the kitchen, I kept thinking of the exact list of things Kenny had said, which had gotten me so angry that I had snapped.

Right, he was talking about how senseless I was and how I was yet to even apologize to Rory since we crossed paths again. And the more I think about it, I absolutely hated the fact that I could tell that there was some truths in all that he said. He should have definitely worded that better, but what did I expect from an asshole like him who’s definitely part of the reason Rory hated me so much because he must have definitely filled up Rory’s head with so much trash talk about me.

Why the hell was I suddenly attracted to someone like that of all people? I asked myself as I exited the kitchen and headed to the sitting room where my phones were at. As I contemplated sending a text message to Rory with my second number since he had my first one blocked, I absentmindedly thought of Kenny again and I wondered how he’d react on finding out that an alpha was getting weird, unexpected urges to kiss him while choking him. He’d definitely be appalled and repulsed, telling from how upright and judgemental he was.

Without dwelling on it too much, I ended up sending a simple text to Rory, telling him that I was sorry.

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The next morning as I took care my grandmother, all that filled my heart was regret, regret for staying away this long. It hasn’t even hurt like I had thought it would when I return here, or perhaps I had just successfully blocked that part out, but I seriously regret staying away from the only family I had left and I was determined to make up for those times no matter what.

After eating and making use of her drugs, we were sitting in her bedroom and absentmindedly speaking when I suddenly remembered to ask about Rory, on remembering that she told me he and Kenny had two children.

"Oh, no, Anna isn’t for Rory or Kenny, she’s Kenny’s niece but Kenny is bringing her up after she lost her mother." Grandma explained and I nodded slowly before leaning closer.

"But what about the younger child? Is it for the two of them?"

Grandma shook her head again. "Rory birthed his son before he and Kenny got together." She explained and my brows furrowed as I dwelled on those piece of information.

"Around what period was his son born?" I asked even though it definitely shouldn’t concern me, but there was just something that still felt unclear to me.

"18th September 2021." She revealed and my heart skipped a beat, mouth falling open a little.

That’s the exact year I searched for Rory like a mad man after he disappeared, and that’s when he also birthed a child.

So, the only question I had left was simple.

Who’s the father..?