Chasing And Claiming My Rejected Omega Mate:Alpha's Severe Regret [BL]

Rory

My hands were shaking on the way home, and I hated it. As soon as Kenny noticed, he reached for my hand and tangled it with his, while his second one controlled the steering wheel.

"Stop worrying your head off, doll." Kenny spoke, voice low and soothing and I felt my heart fill up with an immense feeling of love for him, because I know if not for him, I won’t be who I’ve become today. It was mainly all thanks to him, even though hated taking credits for that.

I bit on my bottom lip, my mind traveling back to the entire conversation we had with Jason back at his grandma’s place and a bitter taste appeared across my tongue again. I let out a long sigh and tried forcing myself to stop thinking, but nothing was working.

"What if he ends up discovering that Niko is really for him?" I whispered. I couldn’t help it, I was still feeling extremely worked up and worried. We were currently on our way home from grandma Nini’s house and I was feeling a lot of things at the same time.

Anger, irritation, fear, worry. All at once.

"He doesn’t, at least for now, I’m very certain of that." He paused for a moment before continuing.

"But if he ends up finding out, you know it won’t be the end of the world, right?" He continued quietly and I bit harder on my bottom lip, staring down at my laps.

"Niko is definitely already curious, and whenever he ends up knowing the truth, he’d most likely want to meet his father. Will you deny him that?" He asked, glancing at me for a moment before refocusing on the road and I felt a rush of anger curl through my chest.

After getting rejected and sent away by Jason, I suffered tremendously. From living on the streets, to being through another problem in the hands of Trevor. I went through a lot while pregnant, only for Jason to be able to come see my child whenever he liked just because he’s the father? I didn’t like that at all, it made me angry and hurt. But then Kenny was right, I don’t think I’d be able to deny my son that.

"You know I won’t be able to, even though I won’t be okay with it." I finally mumbled before exhaling again. Kenny squeezed around my hand one last time before dropping my hand and reaching for the gear of the car.

"Exactly. You’re too kind to ever do something like that. And nothing’s gonna happen even after you allow that to happen, it would just be you giving your son the opportunity to grow up with two parents who’d undoubtedly love him." He explained and I let out a small huff, still feeling unhappy.

He definitely had a point. I didn’t grow up with loving parents, and I don’t remember much of my childhood but I knew my father gave me up to the leader of his pack when I was still a baby because he was unable to pay back his debt. I definitely wasn’t my child to experience what I didn’t get to.

"You’re a parent to him though. You know that, right?" I asked as I turned to stare at him and he flashed me a smile as he nodded.

"Of course, baby. I do. I see him as a little child of mine as well, and I care for him as one. However, since his biological father is still alive, he might be interested in meeting him."

"And if he is, it’s only fair that you allow him to meet his real father. It’s up to him if he doesn’t end up getting along with his father or ends up hating him, but at least you’d know you did the right thing and also played your own part."

As soon as Kenny spoke finish, I realized that once again, he was right in that rational, unbiased way.

"Niko is very picky, he might definitely end up hating Jason’s rude ass." I muttered and Kenny chuckled softly before throwing me a knowing look.

"So, you gonna break the news to him tonight?" He asked and I wanted to instantly say yes, already knowing that I’d not be keeping to my words. But it hit me that it was pointless to keep stalling everytime, and so I inhaled and exhaled before sharply nodding.

"Yeah, I will."

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I was sitting cross legged in Niko’s bed, and he was curled up in my arms. Kenny had just finished reading him a story but he was still wide awake like he could already sense that I wanted to reveal something to him. Sometimes, I suspected that Niko was something more than an alpha the way he was so attuned with scents. At this little age, he wasn’t supposed to be able to differentiate someone’s mood from their scent but he could do that just fine.

"Sleep well, pup. Love you."

Kenny closed the book and leaned forward to kiss Niko’s forehead, and then he got to his feet, heading for the door.

My eyes instantly widened and I panicked. "Are you leaving?" I asked, hating how my voice wavered a little. Kenny turned around and watched me closely, clearly surprised.

"I wanted to give you two some privacy..." He began but I shook my head firmly.

"No, don’t go. I want you here too." I admitted and he instantly returned to the bed and sank into it. This time, he sat closer to me so our sides were touching and I felt myself relax once more. I hated to admit it but I was scared about this conversation I was about to have with Niko, but with Kenny being here, that would take most of my nerves away.

"Baby..." I began, staring down at Niko who was now fully sitting up across my laps. His eyes were cute and greenish, the exact copy of mine. And he had my nose as well, but the rest of his face was his father, Jason. If Jason take one look at him, he’d undoubtedly be able to tell that Niko belonged to him.

"You can tell me anything, dad." Niko whispered, leaning forward to kiss my cheek before nuzzling into my chin for a few seconds, like he was trying to scent me in order to chase away the tension in my scent. My heart clenched tightly, he was such an adorable alpha, how could some of his classmates be afraid of him?

"I know, baby." I choked out, just as Kenny’s hand went around me to massage my back.

"You see, baby, I want to tell you something important." I finally began after clearly my throat and Niko listened attentively, eyes focused on me. 𝒇𝒓𝒆𝒆𝙬𝒆𝒃𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝙡.𝒄𝓸𝒎

I didn’t know how to start and I glanced at Kenny who gave me an encouraging nod.

"Baby, I want to talk to you about... your father." I began, and if Niko was shocked, I couldn’t tell because his expression didn’t change.

I swallowed emptily and continued.

"You know I’m your dad, right? I know I never told you about this, but you have a father too. I never spoke about it because I wanted you to grow older first." I continued and my son slowly frowned.

"Oh." He mumbled, head tilted sideways.

"Yeah, baby. And the truth is, he’s currently around... like, he’s in town. So I thought its best I let you know now. I’m sorry I kept this away from you." I admitted quietly and my son shook his head.

"Don’t be sorry, dad." He mumbled and I flashed him a grateful smile.

A few minutes passed and he didn’t say anything, which made me glance at Kenny.

"You aren’t saying anything, kiddo." Kenny pointed out softly and Niko shrugged a little.

"I’m still processing this new piece of information." He explained and I resisted the urge to smile. He was the only three year old I’ve heard say shit like that.

"So... I- I thought I didn’t have a father." He finally admitted and my eyes widened.

"No, no, don’t panic, it’s not as bad as it sounds. I never gave it much thoughts, else I’d have asked you about it. But my classmates at school sometimes talks about their two parents and I could only talk about one. But it never bothered me because I have Kenny and since I love Kenny, I didn’t want a father anyway, so I never cared about it enough to feel sad or concerned about it." He admitted and my eyes widened even more before Kenny and I exchanged another look.

"I’m so glad you never let that get to you, and I’m still sorry I never told you about it. But now that you’re aware, you can ask to meet up with him if you want to, okay?" This time, I had to force myself to say those words.

Niko frowned.

"Is my father a good person?" He asked and my heart pounded hard as I asked why he asked that question, which made him shrug.

"Because he’s not here, but Kenny is." He responded like I was dumb to be asking him that question.

I cleared my throat, not knowing what to say at first. I couldn’t possibly tell him his father rejected me in the past.

What the hell was I supposed to say to him now?