[BL] Debut on Earth After Retiring as the Healer of Interstellar

Chapter 40: Doubt

"Wake up in day one

Where everything seems destroyed..."

Watching the short video, everyone had mixed reactions to this. In the beginning, they were stunned by the soft and melodic voice from that unknown young man. It was really a good voice even if his nervousness can be felt. His shaking even added something unfamiliar yet good to listen to because given how they usually knew how feisty this song was, it was rare to hear someone sing thus using that kind of voice.

But just as they thought that everything would go well, what happened next destroyed everything.

"Here in the daylight, I stumbled upon... the truth... w-where even the sun couldn’t hide."

"???" They were confused when they heard him stumbling on the lyrics but they thought that maybe he was nervous again. Yet after that, he began making mistakes again and again.

"Your soul was dead

Buried deep an— deeply and just.

How—"

"Enough."

The singing was abruptly stopped and they heard that familiar stern voice. That was from Yang Yueran!

They couldn’t see any faces but the three young men who were at the center had very extraordinary temperaments and as fans, they quickly recognized them as the members of the Ellipsis.

But who is singing?

"If you can’t even do this part properly, how can you stay in the group? Ellipsis’s songs have rap for everything. The most basic thing you must have is rapping in this group."

"!!!" The viewers were shocked. For Yang Yueran to say those words, it’s obviously impossible that it was for Gu weiyi and Chu Xining. Now that they’re out, who was in the position that could make him say those words?

"You won’t survive being in my group."

The video was stopped after that but the audience clearly heard the last words he said.

Won’t survive in the group? Who else could it be but the newly appointed member of the group? The one who performed was Feng Rouyun!

And for Yang Yueran to say those words, it was obvious that he was very disappointed, even didn’t hesitate to speak bluntly.

Hearing that completely overturned the fans and passerby. They quickly flooded comments under this point, not to blame Yang Yueran for saying such words straightforwardly but for the young man who made him that way— Feng Rouyun.

PalacePrince: That’s it! It was already Yang Yueran who said those words! This Feng Rouyun clearly doesn’t have any abilities to join Ellipsis!

PeachyWine: What’s the company thinking?! From all the people who had long wanted to debut, you really picked someone like him?! Bro, you fucked it up! Remove him immediately!

TrulyLove: Damn it! I don’t care about his face anymore! He can just leave and my brother away! This ability isn’t worth it inside Ellipsis! Remove him! Remove him!

YuCloud: Brother Ran is right! If he can’t even do the basic rapping and singing, how is he qualified to be in the group?! And even has the audacity to perform their debut song! Such a nuisance!

MoreElli: We demand retraction to your statement! Axing, release another statement! Remove him! Remove him before he’ll cause a downfall of the group! Feng Rouyun, get out!

The comments were flooded with the same message, they want Feng Rouyun out from the group.

They couldn’t just believe how the company could do this? Do they really want to destroy Ellipsis’ hard work after four years? The boys did everything they can to sustain the group with high quality works, why do they want to destroy it?

Is that how the company treasures them? Is that how they want to put authority to them?

The expectations and attraction they felt towards Feng Rouyun vanished in an instant, all that was left was utter disappointment.

....

Back in the practice room, the silence after seeing people’s reaction made the young man freeze. His eyes stayed glued at the comments and the light on it slowly dimmed, as if a candle’s fire went out. The ocean blue eyes were like the ones that shine under the sun and lose their light when dark clouds cover the sky.

Feng Rouyun had already expected they wouldn’t accept him but reading it personally brought pain to his heart on another level. There was like a huge lump on his throat and his body chilled. His face also turned deadly pale until the corner of his eyes reddened.

This is the first time he received such hatred from the people around him.

It was indeed overwhelming and it won’t even get out of his mind. Like a broken cassette that only knew how to repeat everything endlessly.

He unknowingly leaned in the mirror and slid down his body to sit on the ground. His knees just gave up while his hands trembled.

He tries to inhale a deep breath but it seems like the stabbing on his heart will never fade away. Like something that will be plastered forever inside you.

And this is never a good lesson for her.

Is he really that bad? Is he really not qualified to have the chance?

Feng Rouyun put down the phone and stared at the ceiling above. Too bad that at this moment, no matter how much he tries to distract his thoughts about anything, his mind would just automatically look for what happened.

Even when he’s just starting, they don’t want him immediately.

It turns out that no matter what he’ll do, nothing will change.

So what’s the point of this? What’s the point of trying his best to prove himself? And how can he even prove when there is no one who’s willing to give him a chance for once?

He felt like he was back at square one again. The one that he kept on holding slipped out on his hands so he was back to mindlessly groping around again— blindly looking for something he didn’t even know how to find.

In this new world where everyone doesn’t welcome him, where will he stand?

The once highly regarded healer became just a laughstock in this world.

On that night where he stayed alone inside that training room, no one was by his side. Only the stifling silence and aching heart accompanied and witnessed the tears streaming down his face.

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