[BL] Debut on Earth After Retiring as the Healer of Interstellar

Chapter 17: Thoughts

Both Yang Yueran and Gu Weiyi’s expressions didn’t change upon seeing what Feng Rouyun did. They merely looked at him before leaving the room too without a word.

Meanwhile, sensing the freezing atmosphere, the staff also consciously left one by one leaving Director Cha and the Producer Na inside the room together with Feng Rouyun and Ru Anyan.

"It’s okay, Rouyun," Ru Anyan finally couldn’t help but lead the young man to sit down and pat his shoulder for comfort.

Feng Rouyun nodded and looked at them. "I’m sorry." He apologized again.

Director Cha sighs. "Feng Rouyun, to tell you the truth, it’ll be too hard. I’m not saying this because you don’t have potential but rather than the incompatibility of you and others. Have you seen all the music videos and listened to their songs?"

"Yes, Director." Feng Rouyun answered.

"What do you think about their songs?"

Feng Rouyun flashes a hesitation to his face so they encourage him.

"It’s okay to share your thoughts with us. It’ll be really helpful to hear something new perhaps." Producer Na encourages, not even noticing his voice tone down a bit as if gently encouraging a child.

Looking at Director Cha and Manager Ru, Feng Rouyun found the courage to speak his honest thoughts.

"Actually, at first I agreed with what everyone says about Ellipsis. It is indeed a theme with aggression and wilderness, like there’s always a fire within them. However... after carefully scanning through the lyrics, I realized something different."

Feng Rouyun pauses before dropping the next second. "... Underneath the sharpness was loneliness."

"...." the three were stunned at the last word that he said.

Loneliness?

Feng Rouyun starts fidgeting his fingers in nervousness.

Truthfully, he doesn’t have the confidence to say that. Not because he is not sure of his observation but rather just the fear of overstepping something he shouldn’t have.

However that was really what he thought.

Every music that Ellipsis had, the first impression is that they’re domineering and such. Probably also because of how the music shows, the rhythm and melodies are very strong too. Even the music videos itself shows how Yang Yueran, Gu Weiyi and Chu Xining shows their sharpness but Feng Rouyun read the lyrics without the mentions above and understanding something.

Beneath these lyrics are the concealed loneliness.

Even though they appear strong— as if they could conquer everything and fight face off without hesitation, there seems to be something fragile inside the story.

The endless fight they always face in every world from every album covers the vulnerability in it.

For example in the song of Rebellion. The lyrics say, "Your soul was dead. Buried deeply and just." It exactly represents their real self beneath everything.

Feng Rouyun felt that they were not talking about others but themselves. It was not just the people around them who have darkness but they have it too.

Furthermore, what intrigued him the most was the black clouds above the people inside this room.

Among everyone, the three members have the darkest. They have the same darkness and he felt the eerie and danger inside them.

It was like the storm was brewing for a long time, and when it really bursts, it will never be just a strong wind and rain— it’s chaos and havoc.

These days he saw black clouds above everyone’s head but the darkness varied. There are people who have lighter colors especially for children while older people have darker shades especially for teens and adults.

However he doesn’t have a clue where it begins. How did they catch mental pollution in the first place? In what condition does it darken? Feng Rouyun has many questions but what relieved him for now was that these mental pollution doesn’t infect others.

He saw many people get close but the shades on their head didn’t mix nor affect each other.

In addition to his observations was his ability. This world doesn’t have any energy that could replenish his spiritual power.

In his past life, they collected energies from crystals and minerals. Gold, silver, pearls, etc., that were their main sources but he had already seen jewelry like this and he never felt anything from it.

So he had been conversing out of worry that he might never use this in the future.

Yet looking at the dark shade above Yang Yueran and others, he hesitated.

He’s worried about what will happen to them if things get worse. But healing them is difficult. It requires personal skin contact and just from their attitude earlier, getting close is way too impossible.

While Feng Rouyun was worrying about this, he didn’t notice the reactions of the other people around him.

Ru Anyan and others were very surprised by his observations and they looked at each other.

Truthfully, what he said was real.

Beneath the aggression that Ellipsis always gave, there’s scars on them.

They knew this the most considering that they are in charge of the songs while Ru Anyan spent with them for a long period.

Ru Anyan specially knew the stories of the three and their struggles especially within themselves and their families. They have problems that they’ve been carrying and the situation is actually not good until now.

But this feeling is concealed and unnoticed by many. Because they’re always emphasizing the concept and even the lyrics from most of the songs talk about their journey as vigilantes.

The voices behind everything were still left unnoticed.

They didn’t expect for Feng Rouyun to see this.

Director Cha stared at the young man intently. His fingers unknowingly begin tapping on the desk one by one, indicating that he’s thinking about something deeply.

From the first time he saw this young man, he could feel an indescribable aura around him. As a director himself, he has a keen eye on seeing potentials among the young people who wanted to shine on stage.

Honestly this young man has. The gentleness and soothing temperament around him is very natural and he could tell that if he debuts in the right way, he’ll no time achieve many things.

Unfortunately he will be in the spotlight under such terrible timing.

Many will not accept him and for now he can’t tell if he will be in the future. Aside from that, the young man is very inexperienced. Earlier he heard his voice and found it good, but he looks very incompatible with the Ellipsis themselves.

If Feng Rouyun will debut inside another group who has similar concept and temperament like his, maybe he can easily integrate himself and shine even more but in such a group that is full of spikes, how can someone like him fit in?

But he— no, they have no choice but to do something for this.

Because it’s either Feng Rouyun will bring blessing or downfall for them.

Of course they’ll never allow the latter, but how to do this?

He looked down at the new concept they wrote and picked up his pen to write something.

Director Cha’s eyebrows frown as he focuses on the changes and putting something on the papers. His hand didn’t pause for a bit because of the sudden continuous ideas flooding inside his mind but his mind is getting clearer and clearer.

Somehow his frown disappeared and his eyes lit up because of the ideas he put forth and the connection between each other.

He thinks that they can do it.

This Feng Rouyun’s existence in the group might be the key they’ve been wanting to have, not just to showcase another side of Ellipsis... but also unveiling some truths.

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