Peerless Perverted Actor Has a Celebrity Harem?!

’A failed actor to the end.’

The thought brushed against him with a faint, bitter humor, then vanished beneath the cold.

Sirens wailed somewhere in the distance.

Distant and apologetic but too far away to matter yet.

The snow kept falling.

It fell on his open eyes, slow fat flakes that did not melt the way they should have, because the surface of him was no longer warm enough to argue. It fell on his lashes. It fell on his parted lips. It fell on the blood. It fell on the script. The blood was losing the war already, its defiant red softening to pink at the edges, then dirty white, then nothing at all as winter drew its merciful, indifferent veil across the scene.

’Tidying up.’

Putting the body away.

Making the road presentable for the morning shift.

A single tear escaped the corner of one eye and rolled an inch down his cheek before the cold caught it. It froze there, small and bright, a diamond of regret no one in the crowd would notice. Not with the blood. Not with the bent limbs. Not with the sirens trying and failing to arrive before the ending.

His chest rose and fell but barely.

Park had always imagined death would arrive with more ceremony.

Not glory, necessarily.

He was not delusional enough for that, though the entertainment industry had certainly tried to train delusion into him like a second language. But something. A last speech. A meaningful thought.

A flash of memory arranged with taste and dramatic restraint. A final vision of his life, edited cleanly, scored properly, ready for whatever judgment waited after the credits.

Instead, he got snow in his mouth and strangers filming him from the curb.

’A failed actor finally gets to be surrounded by cameras.’

The joke was so cruel it almost deserved applause.

His vision blurred, sharpened, blurred again. Faces above him became smudges. Headlights stretched into long golden wounds across the storm. The sky lowered, white and endless. Somewhere above him, someone was still screaming at people to help. Someone else kept repeating that the ambulance was coming.

An older voice, gentler and more useless than the rest, murmured, "Oh, the poor boy. Oh, the poor poor boy," again and again, as if repetition could bargain with the universe.

It could not.

It never had.

If begging worked, Park would have been famous years ago given his peerless talents and looks.

If wanting something badly enough could force the world to bend, his name would already have been printed on posters and billboards, whispered by fans, argued over by critics, envied by other actors sitting in cold waiting rooms pretending not to check the time.

He had wanted it with a hunger that embarrassed him; but Park wanted not merely fame, though fame would have been nice. Not merely money, though money would have been more than nice and anyone who pretended otherwise had probably never counted coins before buying dinner.

No.

What he had wanted was simpler.

He had wanted to become someone.

An actor whose name carried weight.

A man who could walk into a room and make people pause, a face remembered not because it was beautiful, but because the person behind it had finally done something the world could not ignore.

Instead, he had spent his life being almost.

Almost chosen.

Almost noticed.

Almost enough.

He was handsome enough to earn resentment from all male yet not lucky enough to earn a future.

That was the ugliest joke of all. A face made for screens attached to a life no camera had ever bothered to follow. Casting directors praised his look, then forgot his name. Assistants smiled like kindness was part of the building’s furniture. Other actors moved past him with better managers, richer parents, warmer connections, easier lies.

He had watched people with less hunger and even lesser of his looks climb higher because someone had opened a door for them before they even knew what a locked door felt like.

’And still, like an idiot, I kept knocking.’

Audition after audition.

Smile after smile.

Rejection after rejection.

The script page near his hand shifted in the cold wind.

A line in the margin caught his fading eye, written in his own rushed handwriting.

Pause here.

Smile like you mean it.

For some reason, that hurt worse than the broken bones.

Smile like you mean it.

Had he ever?

Really?

Or had he only learned to arrange his mouth into something acceptable while the rest of him grew tired behind it?

His breath snagged.

The world tilted inward.

Behind his eyelids, light narrowed slowly, drawing itself back the way curtains closed at the end of a show no one had quite enjoyed. The noise of the street softened. The sirens thinned. The crying became distant.

His heartbeat retreated from him, each beat arriving later than the last, as if it had found somewhere better to be.

He thought, absurdly, of his apartment.

The heater that coughed more than it worked.

The unpaid electricity bill tucked beneath a cracked mug.

The cheap black coat he had chosen that morning because it made his shoulders look better.

The small hope he had felt while locking the door, shameful and stubborn and stupidly alive.

Today might be different.

That was what he had thought.

Today, someone might see me.

The memory nearly made him angry but not at the car, winter or even at the driver whose shadow he could no longer remember.

At himself.

For hoping so cheaply.

For wanting so much from a world that had never once promised him fairness.

For dying with nothing to show but a ruined script and strangers whispering near the curb.

His fingers twitched.

Once.

So small no one noticed.

Park tried to breathe again. The attempt scraped through him, weak and ugly. His mouth opened slightly, but no words came. Not help. Not please. Not remember me.

Nothing.

The script page nearest his hand picked up another smudge of red, then fresh snow landed over it.

INT. CAFÉ, DAY disappeared first.

Gone.

One by one, the lines vanished beneath white.

The city would do the same to him by morning.

Salt on the road. Tire tracks through slush. Workers clearing the pavement. People stepping over the spot where he now lay without knowing a boy had died there with a failed audition in his bag and regret freezing on his face. The world was excellent at moving on. It had practiced on better men than him.

The simplest question hung over the scene unanswered, the way such questions always did.

’What was it all for?’

The auditions.

The hunger.

The mirror rehearsals.

The humiliation.

The beautiful face.

The empty life.

’What was any of it for, if it all was meant to end here, beneath falling snow, with the city already preparing to forget like I am some trash?’

Park’s chest rose.

Barely.

It fell.

Barely.

Then even that became too much.

The cold finally won.

Park’s blood went still and the pain loosened its grip, not out of mercy, but because there was no one left strong enough to feel all of it. The crowd blurred into shadow. The sirens dissolved into the storm. The streetlights dimmed behind a curtain of white.

His body remained on the road, broken and beautiful and useless, while something inside him slipped quietly out from under the weight of flesh.

The snow kept falling.

It buried the blood.

It buried the script.

It buried the boy.

But it did not bury the question.

Park finally took his last breath, and the world did not pause to honor it.

There was only the snow, the blood, the distant sirens, and the bitter little truth that his life had ended exactly the way it had been lived:

’Unnoticed.’

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A/N: Thank you for being patient enough to walk the small glimpse of Park’s life, but that ends now, let’s give you what you came for next; shall we?