In This Life, I Will Extremely Pamper My Short-Lived Husband

In the morning, when Xu Jinzhi learned of the signs of atrophy in Xie Yanchuan’s calf, she didn’t cry, nor did she cry when she was scalded by boiling water or when she cut her finger on glass. Her hand hurt a lot when she treated the wound, yet she still didn’t cry. 𝐟𝕣𝕖𝐞𝐰𝕖𝚋𝐧𝗼𝚟𝐞𝕝.𝗰𝐨𝐦

But at this moment, a single sentence from Xu Zhen made Xu Jinzhi’s eyes instantly well up with tears that she couldn’t help but let spill over.

Xu Jinzhi cried silently, her vision blurring as she looked at Xu Zhen and said in a tiny voice, "I know."

She knew Xie Yanchuan wanted her to live well, and she also wanted to live well, just like in her previous life.

But she couldn’t do it.

As soon as she thought about the fact that it was she who should have died, whether in her previous life or this one, that the one who should have died had always been her, and that Xie Yanchuan died for her, she could no longer live as she did in her previous life!

She had no appetite, didn’t want to eat, nor could she sleep, suffering from insomnia night after night.

Guilt engulfed her, making it impossible for her to breathe.

"I know he wants me to live well." But precisely because she knew, she couldn’t live well.

Xu Jinzhi looked up at Xu Zhen, appearing grievously aggrieved.

Xu Zhen had lost a loved one, he knew how painful it was to lose a loved one, and how useless the comfort from others could be.

They merely got accustomed to the pain of the wound over a long stretch of time, with no one being able to heal it.

Xu Zhen also couldn’t help but have his eyes redden, his heart aching for his daughter’s suffering.

That evening, when Tuantuan came home, he quickly noticed Xu Jinzhi’s injured hand and anxiously asked, "Mom, how did you get hurt?"

Xu Jinzhi smiled and explained gently, "I accidentally scalded myself with hot water, so Tuantuan mustn’t fetch boiling water by himself, as you might get burned too, you know?"

Tuantuan frowned, his eyes full of worry, "Does it hurt a lot?"

"I’ve already applied medicine, it will be better in a few days, Tuantuan doesn’t need to worry," Xu Jinzhi said softly.

But Tuantuan was still unhappy, pressing his lips together for a while before saying, "Mom, I will grow up fast so that you won’t have to work so hard."

Xu Jinzhi had been speaking to Tuantuan softly the whole time, but hearing these words from him didn’t bring her relief, only a deep sense of heartache.

He was so young, why was he thinking about growing up fast?

Xu Jinzhi hugged Tuantuan close, "Tuantuan, Mom is not working hard, you don’t need to grow up fast, you just need to grow up healthy and happy, that’s enough."

"Mom is working very hard." Tuantuan was a child, but he wasn’t unaware of things; he knew his mom was working very hard now.

The mom in the past used to laugh a lot, but the mom now didn’t laugh at all; the mom in the past was very pretty, but the mom now wasn’t so pretty anymore.

It was because Dad got sick that she became like this.

He already knew that Dad might never wake up, and he was very sad and upset.

But he couldn’t keep being sad and upset, he wanted his mom to become the mom from before.

As long as he grew up, he could protect Mom and his little sister, and then Mom wouldn’t have to work so hard, Mom could become the mom from before.

Xu Jinzhi didn’t know what to say, she just felt a deep sense of guilt, for making Tuantuan bear so much at such a young age.

In the night.

Xu Jinzhi watched the caregiver help Xie Yanchuan turn over, then pat his back, and massage him.

When it was over, Xu Jinzhi told the caregiver, "After my hand is better, you can teach me as well."

Xu Jinzhi had seen it many times before, she knew that the caregiver’s actions were not random; there was a technique to it, and she didn’t know how, so she would still need the caregiver to teach her.

The caregiver nodded in agreement, then left the bedroom.

Xu Jinzhi just looked at Xie Yanchuan, staring blankly, with no one knowing what she was thinking.

~

Today there was a financial summit, and Xu Jinzhi, accompanied by Assistant Chen, attended.

Such social engagements were nothing but routine for Xu Jinzhi, and the summit went very smoothly.

Only, Xu Jinzhi accidentally drank a few more glasses than intended. In fact, in such situations, she could have chosen not to drink at all, but she didn’t refuse when others came to offer a toast.

Assistant Chen stood by, wanting to drink in her place, but Xu Jinzhi didn’t give him the chance, having already taken the drink herself.

Assistant Chen could not help but furrow his brows, reminding her in a low voice, "Mr. Xu, perhaps you should drink less."

"It’s okay," Xu Jinzhi said indifferently. She hadn’t had that much.

Yet Assistant Chen’s brows remained furrowed. In the past, Mr. Xu had never drunk so much at social events, always stopping after just enough.

Mr. Xu didn’t use to suffer from stomach issues either, but now even a stomach ailment had appeared.

Assistant Chen wanted to intervene but didn’t know what position he should take to stop her, so he chose to remain silent.

After the summit had ended, the business tycoons didn’t rush to leave but went upstairs for a meal instead.

The networking continued, and towards the end, Xu Jinzhi really felt a bit drunk, but fortunately, she still kept some measure of control and didn’t continue drinking.

Seeing that the dinner was almost over, Assistant Chen suggested to Xu Jinzhi that they could leave.

This time Xu Jinzhi didn’t say anything; she simply nodded and started to leave.

As the two descended the stairs and passed through the lobby, they saw a few people discussing something. Nothing unusual in that.

Neither Xu Jinzhi nor Assistant Chen should have paid much attention.

Yet, someone happened to catch Xu Jinzhi’s eye, and when Assistant Chen noticed Xu Jinzhi’s gesture, he also looked over.

Then, Assistant Chen’s expression turned angry, his brooding glare impossible to hide.

The man standing among the crowd, engaged in conversation, resembled Professor Xie by about seventy percent from a distance!

Assistant Chen certainly didn’t think this was a coincidence.

"Mr. Xu," Assistant Chen called softly at her side, clearly a reminder for Xu Jinzhi.

Xu Jinzhi had already regained her composure, her indifferent gaze retracting from the man as she walked straight out of the hotel.

The driver was already waiting at the hotel entrance. After the two left, they immediately got into the car and departed.

They didn’t see that as they left, the man who had been chatting casually in the hotel lobby looked outside several times.

The man’s eyes held a hint of expectation, uncertain whether that woman had noticed him or not; he had been doing his best to imitate that man.

He must have caught her attention, hadn’t he?

A tinge of nervousness was in the man’s heart, but it quickly subsided. He had time, there was no need to rush; he would just take things step by step.

A smile spread across the man’s face, and then he continued to converse softly with the people beside him.