My Netori Life With System: Stealing Milfs And Virgins

He let her sleep at one-thirty.

She had that particular quality to her sleep that came when something wound tight had finally released, the same quality he’d observed in Petricia on Tuesday morning, and he sat at the edge of the guest bedroom in the dark for a moment and looked at the window.

[DESIRE LEVEL: ELLIE HARPER — 70/100]

[NOTE: PREEXISTING EMOTIONAL INVESTMENT ACCELERATED PROGRESSION SIGNIFICANTLY. THIS IS THE FASTEST ZERO-TO-SEVENTY ON RECORD FOR THIS SYSTEM.]

[NOTE 2: STANLEY FORD TRUSTED YOU WITH HIS HOUSE AND HIS GIRLFRIEND. THE SYSTEM IS NOT MAKING A MORAL JUDGMENT. THE SYSTEM IS NOTING THAT THIS HAPPENED.]

Mike read the second note. Then he read it again.

He felt something that was not quite guilt. He didn’t operate in guilt particularly.

But there was an adjacent thing, a precise registration of what had been in the room when Stanley shook his hand and said it was good and genuinely meant it.

He put the phone in his pocket.

Ellie was asleep in the bed that her sister had visited. Her portfolio case was against the wall in the corner of the room.

On the small dresser, a framed photo of her and Stanley at what looked like a camping trip, both of them squinting into sunlight.

Mike looked at the photo for a moment.

"Poor Stanley... he doesn’t have any chance to taste Ellie’s first," Mike laughed. "She kept it for years, and I have to say... it really was good shit."

Then he reached for his jacket from the chair by the window and stood.

The floorboard under his left foot said something quiet but definite.

He heard the sheets shift behind him.

"You’re leaving...?"

Her voice was not the blurred voice of someone still half-asleep. It was the clear, low voice of someone who had either not been fully asleep, had quickly returned from sleep, or had been waiting at the surface like those who sense that something is about to end.

He turned. Ellie was on her side, facing him.

She had pulled the sheet up to her shoulder, and her hair was loose and slightly flattened on the side where she’d been lying, and she was looking at him with the expression of someone who was reading the room and not enjoying what they found there.

"I was going to let you sleep peacefully," he said.

"I know," she said. "You’re very considerate."

There was a dryness in her tone—neither sharp nor bitter—just the kind that arises when someone is trying to create distance but isn’t quite succeeding.

"The time," Mike said.

"What time is it?"

"Close to two."

She absorbed that. She looked at the ceiling for a moment, then back at him. "And you need to go."

"I have things to do."

"At two in the morning."

"At various points between now and morning, yes."

She sat up slowly, keeping the sheet around her, tucking her knees up and wrapping her arms around them in the way that people do when they are trying to contain something they haven’t yet decided how to express.

She looked at the window. The city outside was the quiet kind of dark that comes well past midnight.

"I keep trying to think of something reasonable to say," she said finally, "and I can’t find one."

"You don’t need to," Mike said.

"I know I don’t need to." She looked at him. "I’m saying I want to and I can’t, and those are two different problems."

He set the jacket back over the chair.

She tracked that motion with her eyes and seemed to consciously decide not to say anything about it, which was a decision he noticed.

He sat closer at the edge of the bed, in a different spot than where he had been sitting before. She didn’t move away.

She did that thing people do when they’re not sure if they should close a distance and decide to let someone else make that choice. She held still and waited to see what the space between them was going to do.

"Twelve years," she said. "Do you know how strange it is that you just walked back in?"

"I do," Mike said. "I was there."

"Not twelve years ago you weren’t." She said it without accusation. The way you state a fact about weather. "You were just gone."

"Nobody could explain your absence to me; Stanley suggested you probably had your reasons. I felt angry at first, then I calmed down, and eventually, I categorized it as something that happened once but no longer does."

"And then I was at the university," Mike said. 𝙛𝒓𝓮𝙚𝔀𝒆𝒃𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝓵.𝙘𝒐𝒎

"Standing outside a building like no time passed," she said. "Which is very unfair."

"I’ll take that."

She looked at her hands, which were still folded around her knees. "I’m not asking you to explain yourself."

"I stopped expecting that from you in the third year, I think."

"You were always the kind of person who made a decision and then executed it, and the explanation came later, if at all." She paused. "The street at twelve. You mentioned it tonight. That was the explanation, twelve years later."

"It was," he said.

"You did that on purpose," she said. "You sent Stanley down my street."

"I did."

She was quiet for a moment. "And you don’t know whether to be sorry or proud."

"I know what you became," Mike said. "The architecture, the thesis, the house. I witnessed what he did for you and how you transformed it into something meaningful."

"We built it," she said.

"Yes," he said.

The word sat between them with everything it contained. She looked at him, and the expression on her face was not a simple one.

At least four emotions were occurring simultaneously on her face, and she was not attempting to conceal any of them, which had always been part of her character. Ellie Harper had never been someone who concealed her feelings.

She had just, over the years, learned which things were worth saying aloud, often choosing to express her feelings and thoughts selectively to avoid unnecessary conflict.

"Tonight doesn’t mean I don’t love him," she said.

"I know," Mike said.

"I need you to actually know that," she said, "not just say it back to me."

He looked at her. "You’ve been with Stanley for eleven years."

"You’ve shared a home with him."

"You’ve shaped your education paths together."

"What happened tonight is significant, and it doesn’t negate any of that. Both realities coexist."

She held his gaze for a moment, checking for something in it, and whatever she found seemed to satisfy whatever question she was actually asking. She let out a breath.

"You’re easier to talk to than you have any right to be," she said.

"I’ve been told."

"I bet you have," she said.

Then, in a softer voice, she asked, "Who tells you that? How many people—"

She stopped herself.

"Don’t answer that," she said. "I don’t want to know."

"Alright," Mike said.

"I mean I want to know," she said. "I just don’t think it would help me."

"Probably not," he agreed.

She made a small sound that was almost a laugh. She pressed her palm to her face for a moment, not embarrassed, just the gesture of someone recalibrating.

"You haven’t changed at all," she said from behind her hand. "You’re exactly the same."

"I’ve changed considerably," Mike said.

"Not the part I’m talking about." She dropped her hand. "The part where you sit there looking completely settled in whatever situation you’re in. Like the situation is lucky to have you."

"You make it sound more arrogant than it is," he said.

"Is it arrogant?"

"It’s practical," Mike said. "Confidence takes less energy than its alternative."

She was looking at him with the full attention that characterized Ellie when she was genuinely engaged, a gaze she had directed at him on and off all evening.

She observed details and expressed her thoughts. She always had.

"I missed you," she said. "I’m just going to say that plainly."

"I missed you, and I was angry about it for a long time; eventually, the feeling of missing you became a normal part of my life, but when you showed up at the university today, it felt real again."

Mike said nothing.

"You don’t have to say it back," she said. "I’m not saying it to get something."

"I know," he said.

"You know a lot of things."

"Not everything," he said.

She tilted her head slightly. "What don’t you know?"

He considered the question with the same attention he gave to most things, meaning he devoted more thought than she expected but less than she might have wanted.

He said, "I am questioning whether I made the right call at twelve."

"I knew what I was doing."

"I didn’t know if it was right."

She was quiet for a long moment.

"It was," she said. "For whatever it’s worth, coming from me right now, in this room, at this hour—it was."

She paused. "Stanley is a good person."

"He is," Mike said.

"He’s the best kind of good," she said. "The kind that doesn’t know it’s doing it."

She glanced at the closed door, at the ceiling, and in the direction of the bedroom down the hall. "He’s going to wake up and make breakfast."

"He’s going to ask how I slept and mean it."

"I know," Mike said.

"And I’m going to have to answer him."

"Yes," Mike said.

"And I’m going to lie about it, of course," she said, and it was not a question or a justification, just a statement of what was true about her.

"I’m going to get up and go in there and be the person I actually am, which is someone who loves him and also made this particular choice tonight."