[BL] The CEO's Forbidden Omega

The first letter arrived on a Thursday morning in November.

It came in a plain white envelope addressed in the careful, deliberate handwriting of a child who had been taught to form his letters properly and was applying that instruction with the appropriate gravity. It was addressed to me, not to Charles, which I noticed before I noticed anything else about it. The return address was the school in Zurich, printed in the school’s own letterhead font, and in the upper left corner Leo had added his own name in the same careful hand, as though he wanted to make absolutely certain I would know who had sent it before I opened it.

I stood in the hallway for a moment before I opened it. 𝕗𝗿𝕖𝐞𝐰𝗲𝕓𝐧𝕠𝕧𝗲𝐥.𝚌𝐨𝚖

The letter was two pages, written on the school’s lined cream stationery in ink that had been pressed into the page with the focused determination of someone writing something they wanted to last.

"Dear Uncle Eric," it began. "Dad said I should write letters because they are more real than messages. I did not understand what he meant at first but Mrs. Hofmann says that things you write by hand mean more because they take longer and because your hand has to decide each word instead of your thumb. So I am trying."

He had written about the school with the specificity of someone who had been paying close attention and had opinions. The food was acceptable, he said, but he had serious concerns about the potato preparation that he described in enough detail to be genuinely funny. The pillows were too firm. His dormitory partner was a boy from Lyon named Theo who owned an alarming number of card games and had spent the first week teaching Leo three of them with the patience of someone who had clearly done this before and had a strategy for it.

He had written about the view from his dormitory window, which overlooked a slope of pine trees and, on the clear days that were more frequent than he had expected, a fold of the Alps beyond. He said it looked like a photograph on a postcard, and that he had told Theo this, and that Theo had said everything in Switzerland looked like a postcard, and that the more days he spent here the more he thought Theo was correct about this.

At the bottom of the second page, in letters that were slightly smaller than the rest as though he had been aware of running out of room and had adjusted accordingly, was this: "I know things were complicated. Mum explained some of it to me and said she would explain more when I am older and that it is okay not to understand everything right now. I think Dad is different than he was before. She said you helped with that. Thank you Uncle Eric. Come and visit if you can. Theo says his family visits every half-term and that the mountains are very good for walking. Maybe you could come and walk. Your friend, Leo."

I folded the letter back into its envelope and stood in the hallway for a moment longer than I needed to, holding it.

Charles came through from the direction of his study.

"Post?" he said, and then he saw my face. He stopped.

"Leo," I said, and held the envelope out to him.

He took it and read it standing in the hallway, and I stood a few feet away and watched his face move through the two pages in a way he did not attempt to manage or contain. Several things crossed his expression that were entirely unguarded, things I would not catalogue because they belonged to him.

When he finished he refolded the letter with care.

"He mentioned the pillows," he said.

"He mentioned the pillows at some length," I confirmed.

"I will have the school replace them," he said.

"Charles," I said.

"He is a child and he is sleeping on the wrong pillows and that is a correctable problem," he said, with the particular quality of someone focusing on a manageable detail because the larger things in the letter were still settling. He handed it back to me. "Write back to him. He took the time to write to you. He deserves a response."

"I will," I said. "I already know what I want to say."

He nodded and went back toward the study and I stood in the hallway with the letter and thought about a boy in Zurich sleeping under the wrong pillows, learning card games, watching the mountains, writing letters that took longer and meant more.

The call from Maya came three days later, on a Thursday evening. Charles was in a meeting in his office and I was in the library working through the archive on my father’s hard drive, and when her name appeared on my phone I answered it without hesitation.

"I have a house," she said, without any preamble whatsoever.

"Where," I said.

"Porto. It is mine. I chose it. That point was made very clearly and specifically in the final stages of the negotiation." She paused. "Your name came up, in that final conversation. Charles said you had raised the point that the location should reflect the resident’s preference rather than his convenience."

"I may have framed it in those terms," I said.

"Eric." Her voice shifted in a way I had not heard from her before, losing the crisp and managed quality that had been its default register through every conversation we had in that house. "You did not have to do that. You did not owe me that."

"I know," I said. "I did it anyway."

A silence came through the phone, comfortable rather than tense.

"It has a garden," she said at last. "A real one, with things growing in it. Leo is going to love it in the summers. He has been asking about it already, what is growing, whether there is space for a vegetable patch. He has apparently decided he wants to grow tomatoes."

"He will be very good at it," I said. "He is methodical."

"He gets that from his father," she said, and there was something wry and honest in her voice. "He gets several things from his father that I did not anticipate and am still adjusting to."

Another pause, this one longer.

"I want to say something to you," she said. "And I need you to actually receive it rather than deflecting it, which I know is your strong preference."

"All right," I said.

"You were the only honest thing in that house," she said. "Through all of it. Through every maneuver I ran and every position I took and every night I spent calculating how to protect Leo’s future using the tools I had available to me. You were honest with me even when your honesty was inconvenient for you. Even when it cost you something real that you could have kept by being less honest." She stopped. "I did not deserve that level of straight dealing given what I was doing at the time. But you gave it anyway, and I am not going to pretend it did not matter."

"Take care of both of you," I said. "In Porto."

"He will take care of me," she said, and in her voice was something warm and entirely unperformed. "He has been taking care of me since he was two years old. He is remarkably good at it for someone his size."

"Maya," I said. "I am genuinely glad you are both somewhere good."

"So am I," she said. "Genuinely. Both words."

She ended the call.

I put the phone down in the quiet library and sat for a moment with my father’s archive glowing on the screen and the fire burning down in the grate and the ordinary sounds of the house around me, and I thought about a garden in Porto with tomatoes growing in it, and a boy writing letters in Zurich on cream stationery, and the many ways that fractured things find their new shape.